I realized something yesterday. I'm incredibly lazy. I thought it was just senioritis last year, but no, it's just who I am. I really need to crack down and get things done in my classes. I have horrible grades. Thank god I'm at a school on a semester system, which means I have more time to fix this. Anywho, I spend a great deal of my time up here with my friend Becky. Pretty much once we are done with classes we text each other and make plans. For the past two weeks its been a given that once I'm done with classes I head to Becky's dorm. My homework situation has been dismal. I haven't been doing everything. If it's not a huge paper, it won't get done. Could I blame this on the fact that I'm constantly hanging out with Becky? No, because Becky has been doing ALL of her homework and still is maintaining excellent grades, despite being in some very difficult classes.
So I'm cracking down on my homework situation. I'm getting stuff done before it's due, taking care of business and making sure I have a good percentage of my homework done before I hang out. Later I will probably be with Becky no doubt, but I'll bring any remaining homework just as I did last night.
Today I forgot my medicine and you would have thought I take tranquilizers or something like that. I thought my concerta was only for ADD but aparently it cures anxiety as well. I lost my mind in math. It was a bit complicated, and I reacted as though someone just broke up with me. I was so emotional and upset. We had a quiz that I couldn't do, which is always devastating. Afterwords I went to the library to work on the new math assignment and I forgot my laptop which just made me angry. I don't need my laptop for math but without it I am nothing and therefore couldn't tackle my math. I left, went to subway to discover that the line was outrageously long. I was hungry and discovered that my phone had died. I lose my mind when my phone is dead because I just keep thinking "I bet someone's trying to get ahold of me with a really great opportunity and I'll miss it because my phone is deadd!!!". These are the things I think about. Clearly concerta helps not only with my inability to focus, but also my many neuroses.
I had to skip my HBM class to recollect. I rested, which consisted of listening to some Jay-Z ("empire state of mind" thank you Janie!) and surfing the web. By the time I left for my next class, I was in better spirits and accomplished a great deal thereafter. Now I'm just sitting on my bed, about to start my GenEd homework. In a few hours I have an Eta Sigma Delta chapter meeting. No, I'm not in a fraternity, it's the HBM club here on campus. It's the strictest club I've ever been to. If you have to miss a meeting, you have to pre-arrange it and fill out an absence form. But It'll be great and will provide me with many opportunities in the future.
Okay time for that gened homework!
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